July 9th, 2007

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First Circle

Are you religious?
I am spiritual- yes.

Do you believe in an afterlife?
I sure do. I believe in many. A cycle of lives each designed to teach a series of lessons.

Do you criticize other religions?
Absolutely NOT. Each person has thier own unique ideals and beliefs. Who am I to tell them otherwise?

Do you think that believing in an ultimate being is dumb?
No.

Second Circle

Is your body sacred, or is it a toy?
A sacred toy. I think it is a temple, but I do not believe it is one to be shrouded in secrecy.

Do you think having sex is something to be proud of?
Depends on the kind of sex you are having. If you are just out there throwing yourself to anyone who glances your way, having unprotected sex, having sex without caring about the other person- then no, it’s not something to be proud of. If it is something you are doing responsibly, with someone you have at least some respect for- then sure.

Do you find yourself constantly having romantic thoughts?
Yes, very often these days. It’s easy when I have someone who treats me so special.

Would you date someone who is sexually active?
Sure. As long as thier former sexual encounters had been protected, or if they had been tested for STD’s recently.

What is your favorite part of a romantic TV show, movie, or book?
Watching the sex, of course!! No- I’m kidding. If it’s a truly romantic storyline, then it’s the story behind the romance that intrigues me.


Are you constantly craving sexual satisfaction?

No. I use to- I’ve had a tendency to use them to compensate for a lack of love. I don’t feel the need to do that anymore.

Third Circle

What is something you find yourself constantly wanting?
Serenity. I want to feel comfortable with myself and my surroundings. I’m slowly but surely getting there.

Do you reward yourself?
Yes. My favorite thing to do is take myself out to eat with a good book. It’s very relaxing.

Do you heal hurt feelings with food?
No- I heal hurt feelings with sex and cleaning. And self-belittlement….

Do you overeat?
not really. I probably actually don’t eat enough. However, what I DO eat isn’t really all that nutritious.


Fourth Circle

What is your favorite object?
Probably a pen or pencil- to write down that which inspires me.

If your house was on fire, would you save this object?
Assuming all my loved ones were already out, I would go after my poem books, photo albums and the laptops (there is a lot of poetry and photos saved on them)

Would you sell this object if a million dollars was offered for it?
Only if my writings continued to bear my name as the author.

Why is this object important to you?
It is my record of my thoughts, feelings, ideas, expressions, etc. It is like a journal of my minds eye.

Fifth Circle

If someone talked smack about you, what would you do?
Shrug it off. I’ve got enough people talking shit about me these days. I don’t really give a fuck anymore.

Do you fight with words or punches?
Words. They work better.

Do you find yourself saying mean things to people over the internet (which is being a pussy, I’ll have you know) that you wouldn’t say in real life?
No. I’m not a mean person.

If someone dissed something you worked hard on, what would you do?
One man’s trash is another’s treasure, and vise versa. If I like it, who cares?

Forgive and forget, or forget to forgive?
I try to forgive and forget when I can.. sometimes it’s just not that easy for me.

Sixth Circle

What illegal or sacreligious activites do you practice?
I’m a pretty good girl. Not sure there’s anything illegal or sacreligious that I do– outside of the bedroom anyways.

Are you rebellious against your religions’ teachings?
Not at all. I embrace all religious teachings I am offered. Even those I don’t believe. There is much to be learned from other’s viewpoints- and much to be gleaned from them.

Have you ever felt the desire to practice witch craft?
Uh…I do

Seventh Circle

Do you have violent thoughts about the person you hate?
Oh all the time

Have you ever wanted to kill someone?
Yep

Who was the last person you hit?
Last person I hit (besides the few instances I’ve spanked my kids) was Mike Huddleston—fucking bastard.

What weapon would you want if you entered a Battle Royale situation (basically, where you hafta kill your classmates and friends)?
A bladed weapon– in this sort of scenario, probably a sword.

Have you ever wanted to take a martial arts class?
Yes, I sure do.

Eighth Circle

Do you do things you know are bad?
Define “bad”. Do I do things that some people might label as such- sure. Some people think that sex is bad, or that eating meat is bad, or that worshipping a goddess is bad.

Would you work for a corrupt association that paid you big bucks?
Depends on what kind of corruption they were involved with. If they were using small children and paying them shit for it, then no- I wouldn’t.

Ninth Circle

Would you rather be a traitor against your friends or family?
Neither. My friends are my family and my family are my friends- so that is a mute point. There are certain people in my “family” that I wouldn’t be too offended by “traitoring” , especially since they’ve decided to take that route with me.

When is it an alright time to betray your loved ones?
Depends on the betrayal.

How do you feel when someone betrays you?
I take personal betrayal very personal. If it is from just an aquaintance or someone I don’t really have ties with, then I could give a fuck. But if it’s from someone I trust, I take it very hard. Of course, it depends on the betrayal as to how hard I take it…

July 9th, 2007

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You know what to do. Put your music on Random or Shuffle and see what happens….. I don’t feel like commenting so I’ll insert the best fitting lyric of that song =)

Where do you live?

Song: Crazy- Gnarls Barkley
Comment: “I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind.
There was something so pleasant about that place.
Even your emotions have an echo in so much space”

Describe your first love:

Song: Bloodletting- Concrete Blonde
Comment: “They used to dance in the garden in the Middle of the night.
They used to dance in the garden in the Middle of the night.
They were naked as the day they were born skin all bone-china white
O you were a vampire And I may never see the light”

Describe your current crush:

Song: Once you had Gold- Enya
Comment: “What is the dark; Shadows around you,
Why not take heart In the new day? Ever and always. Always and ever.
No-one can promise a dream for you, Time gave both darkness and dreams to you.”

What is your challenge?

Song: Hope Has A Place- Enya
Comment: “Under the heavens we journey far,
On roads of life we’re the wanderers,
So let love rise, so let love depart,
Let hope have a place in the lover’s heart.
Hope has a place in a lover’s heart. “

Who are your friends?

Song: Good Enough- Evanescence
Comment: “And I’m still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me. ‘
Cause I can’t hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?”

Describe your appearance:

Song: The Beast- Concrete Blond
Comment: “The prey of the beast screamed Bloody murder
The line is so fine between Hoping and hurting”

What did you do last night?

Song: So I Thought- Flyleaf
Comment: “Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
Believe it not And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies about the times “

Where were you last night?

Song: Pax Deorum- Enya
Comment: “Believe that each day which breaks is your last.
Believe that each day which breaks is your last”

What is your life endeavor?

Song: My Last Breath- Evanescence
Comment: “hold on to me love -you know I can’t stay long
all I wanted to say was I love you and I’m not afraid
can you hear me? Can you feel me in your arms?”

When do you have sex?

Song: Anywhere Is- Enya
Comment: “The moon upon the ocean
Is swept around in motion
But without ever knowing
The reason for its flowing
In motion on the ocean
The moon still keeps on moving
The waves still keep on waving
And I still keep on going”


How do you have sex?

Song: Lose Control- Evanescence
Comment: “You don’t remember my name.
I don’t really care.
Can we play the game your way?
Can I really lose control?
Just once in my life,
I think it’d be nice,
Just to lose control, just once,
With all the pretty flowers in the dust.
Mary had a lamb.
His eyes black as coals.
If we play very quiet, my lamb,
Mary never has to know”

Where do you have sex?

Song: From Where I Am- Enya
Comment: It’s an instrumental song- but the title seems rather self-explanatory for this one I think…lol

How do you want to die?

Song: Lithium- Evanescence
Comment: “Don’t want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can’t break free until I let it go.
Let me go.”

Where do you want to die?

Song: There For You- Flyleaf
Comment: “Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your sky
Sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry”

What do you want to say to your parents?

Song: LoveSong- Snake River Conspiracy
Comment: “However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you “

Where do you spend your time?

Song: Bring Me To Life- Evanescence
Comment: “how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead it back home”

How do you spend your time?

Song: Strangled- Snake River Conspiracy
Comment: “Now what they say
Is just stay away.
Mask in my hands
Now they all know-
The closer I get
The more I’m pushed away,
I want it so much”

What are your views on the society?

Song: I Don’t Need A Hero- Concrete Blonde
Comment: “The words of love have been confused
The ways of love have been abused -
Is this a lottery you win or lose?
I don’t know – Its an endless circle over time
The place inside where I hold and find
Your sweet and happy music in my soul”

Describe your latest heartache:

Song: Weight Of The World- Evanescence
Comment: “Feels like the weight of the world,
Like God in heaven gave me a turn.
Don’t cling to me, I swear I can’t fix you.
Still in the dark, can you fix me?
Freefall, freefall, all through life.
If you love me, then let go of me.
I won’t be held down by who I used to be.
She’s nothing to me.”

What is your explanation for everything?

Song: My Immortal- Evanescence
Comment: “You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me”

What do you think about during Fridays?

Song: All That I’m Living For- Evanescence
Comment: I can feel the night beginning.
Separate me from the living.
Understanding me, After all I’ve seen.
Piecing every thought together,
Find the words to make me better.
If I only knew how to pull myself apart.
All that I’m living for, All that I’m dying for,
All that I can’t ignore alone at night.
All that I’m wanted for, Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.”

What are the questions in life you would like to have an answer to?
Song: Somebody Hates You- Snake River Conspiracy
Comment: “I smell the arrogance from across the room
Pasty skin and heroin, Our host will be here soon
Another night, another life! I cant take this anymore!
Another life, another night! Drunk and passed out on the floor
You’re no one ’till some one,
No one ’till somebody hates you.”

What would you like to do right now?

Song: Sorrow- Flyleaf
Comment: “Sorrow lasts through this night
I’ll take this piece of you And hold for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me And up into the stars
Joy will come”

Describe your best friend:

Song: Sweet Sacrifice- Evanescence
Comment: “It’s true, we’re all a little insane.
But it’s so clear, Now that I’m unchained.”

What do you have under your bed?

Song: Breed- Snake River Conspiracy
Comment: “All those years you never knew
All the things that I could do
I keep them in a hidden place
So I can rub them in your face”

What has been your greatest achievement?

Song: Snow White Queen- Evanescence
Comment: “You belong to me,
My snow white queen.
There’s nowhere to run, so let’s just get it over.
Soon I know you’ll see,
You’re just like me.
Don’t scream anymore my love, ’cause all I want is you.”

Where will you go for your honeymoon?

Song: Whisper- Evanescence
Comment: “Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear. Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear. She beckons me
Shall I give in Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I’ve fallen for I rise to meet the end”

What do you have on your To Do List?

Song: Caroline- Concrete Blonde
Comment: “In another life I see you As an angel flying high,
And the hands of time will free you -You will cast your chains aside -
And the dawn will come and kiss away Every tear that’s ever fallen
From your eyes…Behind those eyes, I wonder”

Now that it’s over, what will you do now?

Song: I’m So Sick- Flyleaf
Comment: “I will break into your thoughts
With what’s written on my heart
I will break, break..”