September 19th, 2007
The Hurtful Kiss
I don’t know what it was.
Something came over me and I kissed him
And now I regret it.
I feel so guilty— so shameful
And it hurts.
I never knew that one little kiss
Could tear me up so bad.
Tears cannot cleanse the guilt I feel inside me.
So many tears did I cry.
I will never forget it.. this pain is so great.
And I wonder
And hope
That he can forgive me.
But I wouldn’t blame him if he didn’t.
The one thing that I am glad of
Is that because of the agony that kiss gave me inside
I know now for a fact I could never go any further.
Written July 31st, 1992
Thaydra