Liar in disguise
I open my eyes to the world before me
And all that I can see
Is pathetic ignorance of greedy fools
Looking down upon me.
They may be rich, but they sure aren’t wise.
They speak of truth , but it’s all lies.
They tell us that we are free
But they took that away.
And I still cannot believe
People listen to what they say.
But hopefully someday soon
They, too, will open their eyes,
And see that who they believed was true
Is just a liar in disguise.
Written July 29th, 1992
Thaydra
I sit and think.
You’re all I can think of.
Nothing else comes to my mind.
When I sleep at night
You are in my dreams-
So close, yet so far.
You are everything I want
And everything I need.
Now that we’re together-
I’ve never been so happy.
I’d do anything for you.
My feelings go so deep.
Even though we’ve only known each other
For a short while
I love you
And I don’t know what I’d do without you.
Written November 1991
Thaydra
Knowing I am loved
My heart fills with joy
For so long I’ve been waiting
A circle of gold.
A promise of forever.
Never to be divided again.
Feeling your loving caress
And the whispers in my ear
You soft kisses feathers upon my lips.
Forever I will love you
No matter how near or how far
My heart and my soul are yours.
Written February 1992
Thaydra
Looking out the window
I realize how much I’ll really miss you
And I wonder if I’ll ever see you again.
So few are the minutes
And how fast the time flies by me
And I worry, but all I can do is wait.
To see if my future
Shall be the one I so desperately desire
To spend it with you.
And when again you return
For I hope and believe that you will
I will still be here
Because I love you.
Written April 21st, 1992
Thaydra
Hippocrit
I hear the rain-
Pitter patter, pitter patter.
I hear it speaking,
“What does it matter?
Are you happier?
Or are you sadder?”
Advice always given-
Always spoken-
Always golden-
Never taken.
My heart is crying,
My soul is dying.
Let me out.
I want to be free.
I want to be me.
Not a picture for society.
Written May 11th, 1999
Thaydra
Friendship
Friends come and go throughout your life
Entwining themselves, then disappearing again
But sometimes you meet some people
Who make a great impact.
Who you go through so much with
Who were with you for the good times
And stuck by you during the bad
Who you grow to care so much about
That they become a part of your family
So much that they become a part of you
And ou pray each day that no matter what happens
There will always be that bond that will stand through the test of time
And will remain forever strong
Because you love them, and they are always on your thoughts
And forever in your heart
And you pray that you’ll never lose them
Because they are the best friends you’ll ever have
Written November 27th, 1993
Thaydra
Going nowhere
He was one of those guys you find once in a lifetime-
Sweet, honest, sincere…
He could give so much love and so much comfort
But he was still young.
He had so much to look forward to.
He could have done anything-
Been anything.
Anything at all.
But he was still young
And he was just looking for a good time.
He lost his ambitions
Lost his sincerity and understanding
Lost his comforting touch.
He could have gone anywhere.
He chose nowhere.
Written February 27th, 1996
Thaydra
Frustration
An unseen force is invading my skull
Taking over my mind.
My thoughts take a twisted turn
And my feelings are dulled
And I succum to my sporadic emotions.
I want you dead! I want you dead!
My brain screams at me
And my hands tremble with the desire
To spill blood
And cause severe anguish.
I want everything my way
(I need to feel loved)
And all this does not fit in with my plans.
My soul is torn with its decision.
What to do? I’ve asked myself many times
But the force remains silent
And blinds me
Twisting some more in my numbed skull.
I wish there was some way to end this;
Some way to make it all go away.
To retain my sanity
But I feel I am to late
I believe my sanity is already gone.
Written April 3rd , 1996
Thaydra
Dark are my nights without you close by.
Your love is my wish for the star in the sky.
When your arms embrace me I feel no fear.
When I think of you leaving down my cheek rolls a tear.
Forever you shall be deep within my heart.
Remember that always when we must part.
I will still be here waiting when again you arrive.
My love is so strong, it shall forever survive.
Written December 1991
Thaydra
My Longing
Longing to have you near
My heart reaches out to you
Calling your name
From across the many miles
And over the deep wide oceans
Calling for you to return to me.
Longing to have you back
My soul screams to the sky so blue
Aching for your love
Your passionate kisses
And to be in your arms once more.
Longing to have you with me
My body searches for your touch
Sensations so sweet when I think of you
Wanting your warm embrace
To keep our love strong.
Written March 3rd, 1992
Thaydra